Matthew Maruna

(Music and Lyrics: Matthew Maruna)

Winter has come again just as it has before 

If you listen closely you can hear

 The trees cry out no more

The sun has gone away 

How long I cannot say

I sometimes see it peeking through 

The grim and lonely days

I just want to feel its warmth again

As the snow falls on me now and I shake away the cold 

I find solace in the sunlight that I hope is coming

The darkness that has cloaked my mind

Will melt away again one day 

And I’ll be free from all the snow that's closing in around me

The snow keeps falling fast upon the cabin’s door

What once was just a wounded scream

Is now a mighty roar

I know I should escape 

Before I’m buried by the storm

But my mind has got me paralyzed 

As I pray that it will warm

Let the sun’s light free me from this hell

As the snow falls on me now and I shake away the cold 

I find solace in the sunlight that I hope is coming

The darkness that has cloaked my mind

Will melt away again one day 

And Ill be free from all the snow that's closing in around me

You can take away my sun

You can take away my warmth 

You can break me down

But you'll never stop the fire deep inside

That keeps me believing it keeps me hanging on

And it keeps my mind from grieving

Because one day soon the snow will cease to fall

And there’ll be sunlight

And I’ll be free from this storm

As I walk out the bright side of that cabin’s door

As the snow falls on me now and I shake away the cold 

I find solace in the sunlight that I hope is coming

The darkness that has cloaked my mind

Will melt away again one day 

And Ill be free from all the snow that's closing in around me

(Music and Lyrics: Matthew Maruna)

The cold air creeps in through my window

The darkness fills the room

The only sound that's made is silence

My closed eyes can still see you

When I awaken you're gone

Why do you still haunt my thoughts and dreams

It's been so long and I'm so far gone

From all the things we used to be

I still hear your voice

 I still feel your touch

In the dead of night you come crawling out

Why do you still haunt my thoughts and dreams

I wish I could shake these feelings

I wish they weren't so real

I wish we could be together

One more time to heal

And send all these ghosts away

I know you're better where you are

But why am I stuck here 

They said it gets easier with time

But how long will it take

To heal all these wounds so alive 

And send all the ghosts away

I just want to find some peace here 

And leave you in the past

Why do you still haunt my thoughts and dreams

It's been so long and I'm so far gone

From all the things we used to be

I still hear your voice 

I still feel your touch

In the dead of night you come crawling out

Why do you still haunt my thoughts and dreams

(Words and Music: Matthew Maruna)

And so another day goes by

I just assumed you'd be here not gone

It's like they got your story’s ending wrong

It's hard to make much sense 

There's bliss in ignorance 

…I guess

Still you have to stop and wonder why 

It had to be this way

I’m thankful for today

Because I know that when it's done tomorrow may never come

I'm thankful for great friends and family

I will always hold them near

You will always be so dear to me

Thoughts of you come round less and less

But when they do they weigh hard on my chest

It's so hard to believe that you're truly gone

I still see your smiling face

I don't know why you were taken away

 Now all that's left are thoughts of yesterdays

I know that I was lucky to have known you 

For the little time we were shown. 

I’m thankful for today

Because I know that when it's done tomorrow may never come

I'm thankful for great friends and family

I will always hold them near

You will always be so dear to me

Goodbye for now 

I hope to see you someday

I hope to see you one day again

(Words and Music: Matthew Maruna)

As I sit and contemplate

All the choices I have made 

Choices that have left me bare and my heart to beat oh so cold

All around I see people in love

it's just a world I'm not part of 

A day late a dollar short have I missed the train to evermore 

Maybe one day my heart will find some peace 

Until then I'll wait for it so patiently 

Ill keep waiting on that train 

I'll Keep... Keep waiting on that train

I'll Keep...Keep waiting on that train to come

There have been times before 

When I got on and shut the door 

Thinking that I'd found true love

But it wasn't close to something true

There's a feeling in my bones

That knows a love I've never known

It is this love I'm waiting for and I've got to find it soon

Maybe one day my heart will find its piece 

Until then I'll wait for it so patiently

Ill keep waiting on that train 

I'll Keep... Keep waiting on that train

I'll Keep...Keep waiting on that train to come

Ill keep waiting on that train 

I'll Keep... Keep waiting on that train

I'll Keep...Keep waiting on that train to come

And when the train of death appears

The grim reaper calls me near and says

All aboard your time is through there is no time for change

I will go without a fight

Ride that train into the light

But only if I've found true love and I held it for some time

Then Ill embrace that train my final ride

I’ll be riding on that train

I'll be....be riding on that train

I'll be....be riding on that train

knowing I found love

(Music and Lyrics: Matthew Maruna)

I wake up to the sound of darkness

Running through my brain

I wonder if I serve some purpose

Or am I just insane

I'm struggling to find a reason 

Why I should be here

I'm lost inside the ocean of my mind

It's hard to see tomorrow 

When you struggle with today

it's not because of sorrow

I'm just a bird who's lost it's way

I'm praying that I can find my way 

I'm so lost out here now

I'm struggling to find where I belong

I'm so lost out here now

Before I’m buried out at sea

Oh won't you come and rescue me

Maybe I should just accept the world as it is

You stand in line and wait your turn to die

I don't want to believe that I am here for nothing at all

There's got to be a greater reason why

It's hard to see tomorrow 

When you struggle with today

it's not because of sorrow

I'm just a bird who's lost it's way

I'm praying that I can find my way 

I'm so lost out here now

I'm struggling to find where I belong

I'm  so lost out here now

Before I’m buried out at sea

Oh won't you come and rescue me

I've got to find my way back to land

Where everything is greener again

I've got to find my place in this world 

Where I might make some difference in it

I'm praying that I can find my way 

I'm so lost out here now

I'm struggling to find where I belong

I'm  so lost out here now

Before I’m buried out at sea

Oh won't you come and rescue me

(Music and Lyrics: Matthew Maruna)

When I think back on being young 

I can only imagine

It's been so long I'm so far gone 

From who I used to be

Watching old home movies

 I'm so innocent and pure

But now I stand a broken man

And never so unsure

I’ve gotta get back to when

I was like a child

Without a care in the world

When I was a better person

When I saw the good in you 

When I wasn't so judgmental 

Of all the things you say and do 

When I was better

Where did that person go

That's buried deep inside

A prisoner of all the ways

That people cheat and lie

When you always expect the worst in people 

They rarely disappoint

I’ve got to change the way I think

There's got to be much more

I’ve gotta get back to when

I was like a child

Without a care in the world

When I was a better person

When I saw the good in you 

When I wasn't so judgmental 

Of all the things you say and do 

When I was better

There's got to be some way out of here

A better kind of life

There's got to be some way to believe

A better kind of life

I know there's a place inside my heart 

Where you still exist

I've just got to bring it back to life

And set my spirit free

And set my spirit free

There's got to be something better

There’s got to be something more

There's got to be something better

There’s got to be something more

There's got to be something better

There’s got to be something more

There's got to be something better

There’s got to be something more

To this life

(Music and Lyrics: Matthew Maruna)

The days roll past but still I am the fool

I thought I was the exception 

Turns out I was the rule

So don’t fall hard and don’t fall fast

Because what you thought was true love 

Might not be here to last 

I stand before you enveloped by the cold

Seems my heart’s been frozen 

Since the day you broke it 

And I am trapped inside 

I need someone to take my heart and set it free

Melt away the ice that’s taken hold of me

If I could let myself just be not so afraid

And let somebody in 

To save me from myself

And every breath I take 

It’s colder than the last 

And every fire that’s lit

You know it always burns out fast

And I am so afraid 

To let somebody in 

But if my hearts stays frozen 

It cannot be broken 

For yet another time

I need someone to take my heart and set it free

Melt away the ice that’s taken hold of me

If I could let myself just be not so afraid

And let somebody in 

To save me from myself

But if I wait for someone to save me

Melt away the ice

I may never break free

I am the one

The one who has the power

I can no longer wait 

Until my final hour

The time has come to save me from myself

I am the one to take my heart and set it free

Melt away the ice that’s taken hold of me

If I could let myself just be not so afraid

And let somebody in 

And save me from myself

(Music and Lyrics: Matthew Maruna)

The rain falls hard upon my window tonight

It taps the glass and plays its tortured song

It sings to me a song of love where the lovers never meet

I can swear it sings of you

If only I could fly 

And see your loves light burning brightly through the sky

I could find the one who’s trying to find me 

The unknown

When I close my eyes to sleep at night

I often find you running circles in my mind 

And every waking moment feels like 100 years

Because I know not how to break through

If only I could fly 

And see your loves light burning brightly through the sky

I could find the one who’s trying to find me 

If only I knew how 

To find the one who's out there looking for me now

 Maybe then I wouldn’t feel so alone

Maybe then I’d find the one the unknown

Why do I feel so strong for something that is so unknown

My heart it rings out for you

But the echo back never true

Oh won't you please show me the way to this lover

I’m begging you please show me the the way to forever

(Music and Lyrics: Matthew Maruna)

You said you love me baby

Has that been a lie

Or just some words you told me 

And not the feeling inside

You try to change me honey 

Every chance that you can

Am I not good enough to love you

Or am I part of some plan

I am no saint

But at least I know who I am 

If you want to make changes 

Change yourself

If I would leave this world tomorrow 

Would you shed a tear

Not in view, but in private

Where no one could hear

If we could both live on forever 

Is that enough time

For you to take and shape and mold me

Into your perfect lie

I am no saint

But at least I know who I am 

If you want to make changes 

Change yourself

It’s time for me to break free 

It’s time for me to run

If I’m not good enough for now 

I will never be enough

Good luck on your search for a clay doll

I am done being shaped by you

I am not close to perfect 

And I’ll never be 

But God knows I’m trying so hard

To make the best out of me

I am no saint

But at least I know who I am 

If you want to make changes 

Change yourself